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03 October 2012 @ 09:04 pm
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I'm going to actually post an entry. I keep telling myself I'll do it and then never do. I'm always waiting for something else to happen or I'm too tired or I'll just think "they don't want to hear about that thing you just did". I'll make this one anyways.

First thing: SCHOOL. This semester is been at least 500x better than last semester. I'm doing a lot more, but I'm also more satisfied with my work. I spend 9 hours (no including the time I spend driving) at school on M-W, and 6 hours on Tu-Th.

Oddly enough, I think Tu-Th classes tire me out more. I don't have a break between classes and Life Drawing II on its own tires me out. I've been kinda trying to avoid this realization but I can't seem to avoid it: I don't think I life drawing.. just period. It's frustrating and often times I feel like my work from it is very sub-par. Though, often times I do notice when I look at it later on when I'm not being compared to others and I don't have the model to compare my work to I don't hate it quite as much.

I'm just super dissapointed. I thought it would be my favorite thing like.. EVER. I tried to like it, I wanted SO BADLY to like it, in class and out. But.. not only do I not like it, I hate doing it and I'm dissapointed in myself for that. I understand the good that it does me and how it affects my drawing skills outside of life drawing but the act of doing it just sucks. Maybe if I had more control over the situation I would be okay with it, when I work in mediums and techniques that I like I tend to do much better. I'm kinda glad to get that out of my system though.

Okay, all my other classes are pretty cool though. No bitching for any of the others ones! Sunshine and rainbows all around! Actually, I'm not entirely sure what to think of collage yet. There are cool things about it and the professor is pretty fun and has an interest in installation art (major bonus points there!) it's just a really slow moving class. That's for the best though I think given my other classes. I think there's potential for amazing things to go on here, but I just don't feel like I really know yet.

Printmaking has been insanely fun and interesting and I do so like Kate! She's like a polar opposite to Tony in that she doesn't make me nervous, she's okay with me making utilitarian things with the stuff I do in class and she's okay with our personal direction as artists (I felt like Tony always wanted to shift our direction a little closer to his own, do not like!) She's just really lovely as a professor and printmaking is just fun.

I think performance has been my favorite though. I feel like it's a really good medium for conceptual work and more personal work. I'm really interested in doing performance that uses clothing (or even textile in general) as a central element and I feel like there is a lot I can do with that. Our class feels really tightly knit too. A lot of the performances have been personal in nature, and I think that has a lot to do with it. I have to say, it is insanely therapeutic. I might try and take this one a second time if I can.

I'm still working on stuff for the show. I'm making pen drawings on fabric in embroidery hoops of people, there will be 10 total, but they'll be paired up. Each pair will have red thread connecting them in different ways. So far I've completed 2 drawings on the fabric, I have 1 I'm ready to trace onto fabric and 1 I'm in the midst drawing out on paper. They go by quickly so long as there are no anatomy issues. The biggest worry I have about this show is the installation. I know (at least) a few of my antlers need to be repaired. They're just very fragile and have tendencies to break during storage and transport. So, the closer I can repair them to the gallery, the better. There will be glue showing wherever it gets repaired, but that's not much of a problem since I can just wrap the string around those parts. I'm not worried about installing my new piece too much, I'll just need to get the thread run through them. I'm excited, just worried and anxious as well.

I like being busy, as tolling as it is on me. I like working hard, working out of class and going the extra mile on something that I want to be amazing. I think my last few semesters have shown me that: the more I do, the better I feel. I like to put as much as I can into things and that's what I'm really trying to do right now. I'm frequently tired, carefully keeping track of my schedule so I don't fall behind or get confused on dates and I'm often doing a bit of balancing act but personal work, school work and keeping my sanity in check but I feel really good about what I'm doing right now.
Current Mood: tired
Jeff Grit: Avatar - Iroh Soft Smilekihanna on October 4th, 2012 04:16 pm (UTC)
Dude I'm totally with you on the busybusy feels good. It's stressful, but it's kind of a fun and exhilarating feeling. And somehow gets better work out of you in a way. This is why I'm always giving myself 3498572394 things to do haha.

I was so glad when you found that other art mediums seem to click with you. Life drawing hasn't been fun, so it was refreshing to see something that made you feel great and has amazing results. It's good to go with what feels right. It's like when I discovered watercolors and everything just started working.

Isn't Kate the best? She's such a nice person and so supportive of everyone. She really knows her shit too. Aaaa I'm so glad my last semester is just with her.

Oh yeah and I wanted to mention if you want to do a performance piece for the show you are more than welcome. I've been meaning to say that but ahurrr keep forgetting.
Jeff Grit: Digimon - Fly Awaykihanna on October 4th, 2012 04:51 pm (UTC)
Oh yeah and here's the Writing an Artist Statement handout typed out:

The purpose of an artist statement is to inform. It should help the viewer understand the most important aspects of the work and the techniques used to make it. The artist statement is very important to you as an artist. It will clarify your concepts to potential buyers, graduate programs, employers, galleries, residencies, and grant review committees. It will also be used in press releases, exhibition catalogs, and media articles.

First Draft - Use this opportunity to organize your thoughts. Think about your artistic influences as a starting point. What did you choose and why? Start making lists. What do you make? How do you make it? Why?

Getting started
- Look at statements by he artists who influence you
- Are there quotes by artists, poems, or songs that you feel have inspired you?
- Is your work of a personal nature?
- Is you work more formal or conceptual?
- Look at your work all together. Are there words that come to mind?
- Why do you like to make art?
- What is your subject? Why?
- What processes or techniques do you use? Why?
- How is your work unique?
- How do others talk about your work?
- What is the goal for your work?

That's what the handout is. From there it's just organizing, getting the flow right, and just general editing.
Melly: strawberry owlpandaxdoll on October 5th, 2012 02:40 am (UTC)
Oh...! The last performance I did would have been really relevant to our show, but given the space available at the LSC, I'm not sure it would be re-performable there. I'm not sure how good a video or photos from it would work either. A performance or video would be a really awesome thing to do though..!

That artists statement thing is pretty helpful, thanks for showing that to me!
it: [okami] yomigamipost_hummus on October 13th, 2012 12:25 am (UTC)
I always like to read your posts, Melly (despite my delayed response)! It's nice to know what you've been up to! But I also know that you're very busy with schoolwork, too. Such a good little student! :)

I'm glad to hear this semester has been better for you, overall! As for life drawing, don't beat yourself up over not liking it...I'm sure it's not everyone's cup o' tea! While I do think it's important to learn from observation, it doesn't always mean that it's fun. Art has many facets/mediums that seem better suited for you, like performance and installation. I really liked what I saw from your BFA review set up, though!

After seeing some "teasers" from Jamie, I'm really curious and excited to see what you (and Agnes) have planned for the show! It's going to be A-W-E-S-O-M-E
Mellypandaxdoll on October 15th, 2012 01:51 am (UTC)
I really do want to make an effort to post more, I think having a schedule would help with that quite a bit!

I'm glad you liked it! Apparently the staff did as well, I passed. Getting that over with lifted a huge weight off of my shoulders. I may not have liked everything I put up (mostly the books on the table were what I was dissatisfied with) but I guess it doesn't all have to be the most amazing thing ever.

It will be wonderful~ I'm really excited too. *_* I'm getting closer to being done with all my stuff, but installing it all in the gallery will be the biggest issue for me.
it: [okami] yomigamipost_hummus on October 17th, 2012 12:36 am (UTC)
Sometimes I look back on older entries just to see how they differ from my more current ones. It's funny how random they can be! Lately I've just been at a loss for what to talk about, but that's just the thing...it can be anything! I think it's probably easier to maintain a journal when the entries are shorter, instead of waiting for everything to pile up and then trying to summarize all that has happened (at least for me, anyway!) Just do it when the mood strikes, I say.

Congratulations on passing! :D I'm sure that's a huge relief. I get secondhand stress just thinking about what you guys have to go through for the review!

Good luck with the installation, I hope it all goes smoothly for you. I'm able to leave a bit earlier than usual from work that day, so I'll see you at the show? I can't wait!