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14 May 2011 @ 12:15 pm
Fuck yeah, school's out forever! Or at least until next semester starts. It's kinda odd, I don't feel like I'm quite in summer mode yet, I just feel like I'm in weekend mode, if that makes any sense at all, probobly not. I mean, I'm still not staying super late yet, I stayed up until 1:30 last night, which really isn't *that* late. Give it time though, and I'll be at 3:30 every night again.

So, a little of what I plan to do over the summer:
-Finish re-decorating my room
-Set up my Etsy shop
-Finish playing Prince of Persia
-Finish playing Pokemon
-Finish reading Transmetropolitan
-Vacation to Phoenix and Sedona with Paul
-Dance to The Boy With the Thorn in His Side with Sasha (Sasha: We should try to practice next week! When are you available?)

..and, maybe I'll make some art, who knows! Of course, I'll also be obviously be playing the sims daily. I'm thinking if I finish Prince of Persia, I may take up Fable 2 afterwords.

As as room stuff goes: I'm currently working on a ribbon bulletin board, I bought supplies last night and just worked until I ran out of ribbon. So, another trip to the fabric store may be on the agenda today. I'm almost done with my curtains too. I just need to get a weekend dedicated to painting the walls and desks and cleaning out under bed, I think after that everything will fall into place.
Current Mood: giddy
Current Music: The Pixies - Gigantic
I need to be out of school. It's not the projects nor the classes, those are all fine by me. I am however losing my ability to deal with difficult people and difficult (mostly social) situations. I think I've been losing it for a while now, at least internally. I find myself becoming really irritated by people and the little flaws I see in them when I used to just think hardly anything of them. I don't want to snap at anyone, I've already done it once and come close other times.. but, it gets me nothing: I snap at them, and mostly I just feel bad afterwords, I feel no sense of relief, the person I snap at doesn't learn anything from it, I don't feel like anything good comes from it. I've become an increasingly aggressive driver lately too.. and not in a good way. I'm just hoping this will all just go away when school ends, maybe then I'll just be able to relax, and I won't be so irritable anymore. I really don't want this to be a permanent thing, it feels so awful to be so bitter and agitated all the time.

That aside though, I really have enjoyed this semester, it will be my last that I'll have to take non-art classes, I believe the only non-art class I have left kinesiology, which I plan to take later this summer. I have to admit though, I'll miss them, I've really enjoyed learning from them. I honestly don't really know what I'll take next semester just because so much of it will depend on what I can get into, but I really want to take performance and video art. I know it's not in my comfort zone.. and it will most likely be difficult for me (I don't do well talking in groups, much less making a presentation or performance in front of them, I suppose it's sort of stage fright) but after going to the show they held last semester, I became very interested. I also feel like this semester really helped me feel like I'm on the right track: for a while, I was wondering if I'd chosen the correct major, but I think what I really needed was the correct medium and style in my artwork. I enjoy painting (and realism!) so much I almost can't stand to just sketch anymore, it's really strange. I'm hoping when I take life drawing it will help me enjoy it again. I suppose I'll wait and see.

A couple weeks ago I began re-reading all of Loveless, and last week I re-watched the anime. For me to re-watch or read something is uncommon, but I felt just had a random urge to do so for this one. I really enjoyed the manga, I found a lot of representational meaning that I didn't see in the first couple of read-throughs, and I very much enjoy that aspect of it. For now though, I think I'll just pretend the anime doesn't exist. Most of it was okay, but there were a few things in it that just really didn't sit well with me. However, some of that could be attributed to the fact that I ended very prematurely, and didn't have the time to get into the better parts of the story or get into any real character development. I think this has inspired me to re-read, re-watch and re-play things more often, it's so interesting how differently you see a story just from experiencing it at a different time in your life. Even though, there are still so many things I'd like to watch/read/play for the first time. I'll just have to balance all of it somehow.

I haven't done anything new with my room lately, I suspect I'll start getting really into it again during the summer when I don't feel as shitty anymore. I'm really looking forward to it. I'd say I've accomplished about half the things on my list for this, but most of things left are the bigger things, like painting the walls, more organizational stuff, paining my desks, etc. I have a feeling I will really enjoy this summer, I just need to be patient.

I almost forgot to mention: AM finally gave me my money back! It really shouldn't have taken them so long, but, I'm just kinda glad I finally got it.
Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: The Velvet Underground - Venus in Furs
28 March 2011 @ 09:30 pm
Peppermint tea is slightly amazing I've been drinking it pretty much every night lately. It is the solution to all of life's problems (and rather tasty!).

I haven't really been drawing lately.. at least not outside of the little doodles on the side of my notes. I never know what to draw and carrying around my rather large sketchbook has become a bit of a hassle. I may attempt to get advised on wednesday for my classes next semester, I'm kinda excited to see what it may bring.

I'm almost done with cleaning out my room, I only have one more bin in the closet to go through and then I have to go through the stuff under my bed and I'm done. It feels so nice to have storage space available/used properly again. I'm also in the process of making some draperies for the window (I've been wanting to do that for a while!) very slowly, but getting done. I think I've figured out where I'm going to put Jenny: I have this wicker bookshelf and the top space is rounded at the top, so it's not completely ideal for books/cd's and the what not but I figure if I could create some sort of cute room space for her there it'd be pretty neat.

I ended up cutting my hair. My split ends just got so bad from me attempting to trim it myself that it just had to happen, even as short as it is, there are still a few places where I can feel split ends. It's kinda nice because styling it hasn't been quite as bad as I remember it being (or rather the humidity un-styling my hair).

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Current Mood: worried
27 February 2011 @ 04:17 pm
Wow, it's been a while.

Really, I just don't know what to post about anymore, enough is going on.. but it's a case of "can I mention this? should I mention this? does anyone even care?" and getting out of the habit of posting doesn't help either.

Anyways, this semester hasn't been too bad.. I have Fridays off for the first time in a couple of years, which is very nice. Unfortunately, I only have one art class this semester, oil painting, but it's gone more amazingly than I could have ever hoped for. Visor is a great teacher, and oil paint may just possibly be my new favorite traditional media.

I've taken up an ongoing project to re-decorate my room and hopefully get rid of some stuff.. I've already cleared out a few empty boxes that have been in here for just way too long, cleaned up my desk, dusted, took down a couple posters, made a new throw pillow for my bed, bought some frames so I finally display those beautiful TF2 prints I got from Kaz (I'm spray painting the frames white right now!) So, I'm nowhere close to finished (and nor do I plan to be until maybe the end of this summer) but it's a good start. I spend a lot of time here, I might as well make it organized and keep it as visually pleasing as I can.

I still have not gotten my refund from AM.. I'm thinking about making a post on the forums, I'm sure if I do I'll get my money back, it's just figuring out how to format my thoughts so that I don't sound like I'm ridiculously angry or that I think they're kinda incompetent (which at this point, I kinda do.. but..) Maaaan.. I'm terrible at confronting people.
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: The Smiths - How Soon is Now?
09 November 2010 @ 05:47 pm
Yes, I am alive. Just.. finding myself with less and less to talk about here, though, I'm not particularly sure why I feel that way, I have plenty going on. School's been well, but hectic, and more often than not I find myself wishing I was in real art classes instead of WASH.. which y'know, abstract sculpture and painting with forks is nice and whatnot, but it gets old rather quickly. Next semester though...! :] get to do neat stuff!

I really want to set up an online shop for my art since, cons may be happening for me a bit less frequently (if at all). I mean, those prints don't just get rid of themselves! Though.. I'd like to have nicer stuff than I do as of right now, I just don't feel like most of what I have for prints is what I'd like to have representing me and my artwork, but that's essentially what happens when I've got to try to sell stuff at cons. Of course, as usual I never really know what I want from my art, so I never really get what I want out of it. However, there are 2 things I know I want: better lineart, better eyes. It's funny, I have so many eyes doodle in my notebook and yet I actually really hate the way I draw eyes, I'm not sure what it is about them though. I think I just need to study real eyes more.

Also, I mentioned I really wanted TF2...? Got it, played the shit out of it, filled up half a sketchbook with fanart of it [I should really post some of that here].. yeah. It's pretty excellent. Haven't been playing it lately though. Just.. stuff getting in the way.

Life's been very good to me lately though, just tiring as well I suppose.
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Best Coast - When I'm With You
02 September 2010 @ 04:24 pm
I felt like I had a pretty good summer, it wasn't too long or too short and I got a good amount of stuff done. I completed MOST of my summer goals, I think I would have gotten more of them done if I didn't get a job. Not to say having a job is a bad thing and isn't productive, I just wasn't completely expecting to actually get one.

So, now school has started~! I have WASH class at SHSU, which is basically like an introductory to the art programs there and then Philosophy at MoCo.

While I'm really glad to be doing art again, WASH is just an introductory course, and it's on a much more basic skill level than most other college art classes I've taken thus far. It's still pretty time consuming though. One of the things we have to do for it is a blog, which I kinda had mixed feeling about. I love blogs, but I'm not much of a writer myself. But, now that I'm in the hang of doing it it's not so bad. Further more, it gives me some practice with taking pictures of everything I do. I tend to never take pictures of anything because I always kinda forget to.. I don't know. It's nice though~ I like it.

I've only had 2 class periods of philosophy so far, but here's what I've got from it so far: philosophy = mind fuck 101. It's pretty interesting though, and my teacher's kinda cute.. that helps.

Anime Fest starts tomorrow and I'm pretty excited about it. Though, admittedly, I'm always super nervous before cons now that I do artist alley. I think I'm just overly concerned with trying to be successful and not concerned enough with just enjoying my time there. Oh, wait, that's just my life in general. But, uuuh.. I'll be wearing my Viola costume for the first time, hopefully that'll go over well! I'd just like to be recognized ONCE! XD No one ever recognized my Toshiya costume..

I really want Team Fortress 2! I'll get it eventually, it's too much fun not to get! It's kinda weird, I never thought I'd find an FPS to actually be fun, but surprise! But I'm kind of afraid of getting it and never being able to put it down and then ignoring my homework and doing it last minute. :[
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: Stars - Take me to the riot
02 August 2010 @ 11:21 pm
So, I'm liking my job at the H-D dealership more than I thought I would. I think my biggest fear is that I would feel so horribly out of place, but I really don't, at least not to the extent that I thought I would. Time goes by pretty fast when I'm there, and my boss is super laid back. I really can't find much of anything to complain about. It's kinda weird how fast I've fallen into a new routine.

My art slump is finally starting to fade off a little, I'm actually managing to draw somewhat well, and I've been making a lot of progress in CGing stuff. I'd really like to get a couple more things done for prints before I go to A-fest.

Some other things I feel I should mention:
-I'm kinda addicted to poupee girl now. Damn you Jamie and Robert for getting me to join!
-Playing Prince of Persia right now, I haven't gotten much of a chance to get very far into to it yet, but I really like it so far.
-I think I'm finally ready for school to start again, I thought this might not ever happen again.. ever since I dropped out of the fashion program at UNT I've been a little apathetic about school.
-I need to find my prismacolor pencils! I have 2 sets of them and I can't find either of them! I went to Micheal's today to look into getting new ones, but they're so expensive! I can't bring myself to spend the money on something I know I already have.
-I haven't played the Sims 2 in a month, this seems wrong.

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Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: The Smashing Pumpkins - Tonight, Tonight
...because it's been a while since my last one.

I'm already dropping a couple of summer plans: Walking everyday just won't happen because it's too fucking hot, and the sprite projects isn't happening because I'm just not inspired enough to do it weekly. But I think I'm making up for it in a way. I do lunges as often as I can remember and am actually taking daily vitamins. I've been making Jenny a bunch of clothes, so far I've made her a couple of skirts, a scarf and I'm almost done with a pair of jeans for her.

I finally a got a job yesterday as the Harley Davidson dealership. It's kinda random, but.. let's just say my uncle is good friends with the guy who co-owns it so I was able to get an interview. I just thought it was strange that as soon as I stop bothering to look for a job I got one. I was so nervous about the interview, but, the lady who interviewed me was really laid back, so that helped a lot. XD; Of course, a job means no more staying up playing the sims until 3:00 and then waking up at like noon. :[

I've been hanging out with Shannon the last couple of days, which makes me very happy because I don't get to see her too often. Unfortunately most of plans for the day fell through because of the shitty weather, but really, I'm just glad I got to see her. <3

I want to make a picture post soon, at least of Jenny's new clothes and stuff.
Current Mood: peaceful
Current Music: The Knife - Like a Pen
04 June 2010 @ 12:45 am
Yep, it's that time again!

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Current Mood: productive
Current Music: Sonic Youth - Move Away
13 April 2010 @ 03:13 pm
Uuugh, I've been kinda sick to my stomach all day, not bad enough to be rolling around absolute pain like I was yesterday, but just bad enough to diminish my apatite and make me miserable. I stopped exercising after I got sick before Anime Matsuri and haven't really picked it back up again.. I was going to do it yesterday, and then stomach cramps of doom happened.

Anime Matsuri, was lovely by the way~ I don't think it was as fun as it has been in previous years for me, but I still had fun. I think the only things I bought were a bottle of Ramune and a Cameo locket necklace. I think that's the least I've ever spent at a con.

My Dad's friend asked me to design the logo and packaging labels for his coffee company. I've gotten a lot idea sketches out and overall I'm fairly excited about this. It's a small project, but it makes me feel like I actually have work of some sort.

I re-organized my room and cleaned a little bit a few days ago, and go figure it's already looking like shit again. I still have no room for my CD's though.. I seriously need more shelf space! My room WILL look nice eventually, dammit!

Whoo, life!
Current Mood: sick
Current Music: Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Pin